at last, I'm blogging again!!! well actually, I'm only able to do tis wen I'm at home a.k.a holiday... it's not holiday yet at my college in KML but I take extra 1day holiday for tomorrow n the nxt day wilayah day n the rest of the days in this week are hols already for CNY. I was like 'my mom's chinese' wen I asked for extra hol from the timbalan pengarah tat day n was approved, yayyy....

neways gotta really enjoy tis hols bcz I dont think im comin bak again after tis until 2 months from nw, tat is wen I finish my matriculation program... but I will find a way to cme bak on weekend in the middle of the 2 months bcz seriously, I can die if i dont. its not like I'm a bawah ketiak gal bt I juz cant stnd my life there at d dorm.

nehow, ther is juz tis 1 thang in my mind tat make me feel so... undecided??!

well, I've always want to go to overseas n mom knows tat too bt i kinda blew tat opportunity wen I didnt get 4 flat for my PSPM 1. anyhow, I know tat is not the noktah yet, maybe it's juz not my time yet. yup, I'm starting to believe in fate now n maybe there's reason y I didnt get 4 flat despite being a pemalas. u know, u will only succeed if u hav ur parents blessings. like me, b4 my exam tat day, dad told me tat I must at least get As in Bio n Chemy n guess wat, I really did n funny thing is tat I didnt get an A in maths n I believe bcz it was not mentioned tat time by dad... It's like I was set to not get an A in it bcz d nite b4 the paper, i can do tat certain question, bt then the nxt day, the same style of question came out n I dont know how to do alraedy, I was so blank n I cant remember wat I studied the nite b4.

so, my main point is tat our fate is sometimes out of our control n also we need our parents blessings on tat something that we'r doin in order to succeed.

n then, tis morning at d church while we'r waiting for the mass to start, me mom kinda talked abt wat happened in Rusia recently n one of my frens is goin to Moscow to study medic n yadayada... suddenly, she told me tat study medics in rusia dont need to get 4 flat n I still can go ther wif my matrics result if I want to, n the places tat I can go r Kursk, Moscow, Volgograd n somethingsomething n if JPA don want send me, YS will always be available.... Even tho I dont really want to be a doctor, my eyes kinda terbuka a bit wen I heard tat. Bt am I really tat desparate to go overseas till I may not care whether will I like my job in the future? I'm not a person who can sit in a room n do my stuff all day long or maybe even stay the nite there, like a doctor in a hospital. If pharmacy ok lagi, bt as a doctor? I'm a competitive person bt I wont sacrifice the kind of job tat I want(but not sure will hav a gud future or not) just bcz I dont want to lose to my bro.

I used to think the other way round until I watched 3 idiots. Tat movie made me laugh n cry n I really learned sumthng from it, tat is, it is important to do wat ur heart says. I felt like I'm like the fat guy among the 3 of them. His parents wanted him to bcome an engineer bt his passion is photography. n bcz of tat, I alwayz flunk his exams(uninterested). then, after telling his family abt wat he really want to do, he was opposed bt in the end was approved. n he ended up being very successful even tho wat he's doin may not seem to hav a gud future in d beginning. Bt bcz of he's doin somethn tat he like, he succeeded.

As for me, I want to be a geologist bt am afraid abt d job demand. Bt I don know will I ended up like tat fat guy in the movie. bsides, it's juz a movie bt wif a msg tat hav a big impact on me. After this, I'm sure I can get the course in our local uni throughout msia(n logically, without CGPA 4.o, I wont get medics or pharmacy course).

So, I'm sooooooooooo in my world of pening.... Bt still, better I don think abt it nw. I want to happy2 1st...